WTH to SEMINAR JUTAWAN INDUSTRI!!

yeah, thats  wth suit the seminar which I would say the WORST-motivation seminar event that I've ever attend.

WHY??

1. NO PARKING SPACES and its raining heavily!! and you are like have to walk 10 kilometerss just to reach the hotel!!
2. just a SMALL HALL  provided for  maybe 100000 audience who attend ??? what u expect?? hellooow..we are KELANTANESE ,we are all born with business skill in blood and this seminar is seriously would attract half of kelantan population!!!
3. HOT and SWEAT even with air-cond provided coz of the crowded crowddd!!
4. CHICKEN DANCE song was used to warm up the audience!! seriously??? eh helloww its GANGNAM STYLE millenium nowadays,don't you guyss knoww???

ok now i'm done EXPRESSING my feeling. Feeling sleepy. Gud nyte!!

I have lost a friend

Part of her has gone,

I don't know how to regain her smile,

I don't even know what went wrong,

Its not easy for me,

to let go everything,

No,its not that simple,

after what we have been through,

after everything we had shared,

who can erase those from my memory?,

but I know she will never look back,

she made her firm decision,

and no one can change that,

and it will be never the same,

I just hope that you will never forget me.

Fly away

If I had wings,

maybe I am not where I'm supposed to be now,

If I had more choices,

maybe I am not living like the way I did now,

If I never meet you,

maybe I am not who I am now,

YES I dream to fly,

Fly away from everything,

I dream I could landed to a place of the unknown,

where nobody knows me,

where I could have more choices,

where I never know you,

where I could start everything new,

BUT,

when we are dreaming,

someday we will have to wake up,

and that's the time I realize,

I really want to fly

but..

I want to fly with YOU.

Who would have thought? (that this would happened)

Why you did this?

I hate it you know,

I swear to God I never want to cry over this,

but I always forgot that I am not that strong,

Why you are so mad?

You ignores me like I was nothing at all,

like we never know each other,

and yet you knew, that we are closer than blood veins,

I hate it that I love you,

I hate it when we have so many good memories to remember,

We shared almost everything,

We laugh at your stupid jokes,

and I am always glad that God gave me you.

YES YOU.

now you treat me like a stranger and that feel so rough,

I guess you think you had won this "war" ,

and tell you what,

YES U WON.

and if after all these had satisfied you enough,

You can always find me again,

I do not have anymore words to say.

- sis -

Like always..

I'd took the wrong turn..

like always,

now i'm paying the price,

like always,

I dun mind 'paying' if they took money,

but the payment only receive two things,

pain and tears,

I wish I could see the signs earlier...

but I never did,

like always....

BECAUSE

I'd fall in love

like always,

and it will consume me

LIKE ALWAYS.....

updates

well hellowww everybody!!! i

i know u guys has been missing meeee (like i have 1000 followers but its okay to dream a bit)its been like ages since i did not wrote anything,it's all because i was so BUSY with my so called-MASTER study which i was thinking to quit but i CAN'T coz my BELOVED new brother in law keep saying "oh no dear sis,plssss keep hang on to finish master study coz this is the only thing that can guarantee your 4-figures SALARY in the future!"- n THANK YOU my bro-in-law for nvr give up in reminding me that for the 106 times..THANK UUUU!

anyway,i will be going to HUSM for seeking my master opportunities coz i cannot keep up my studies in Uitm due to my health problem (seriously,u dun wanna noe about my diseasesss),anyway i hope i cud have some kind-loving-understanding SUPERVISORS (yeah.-r-i-g-h-t) which i know it wud happen only in fairytales..but hey, HOPING is a gud thing-no harm-

and u know its getting really chill here in my hometown coz its raining seasonsssssss ( a season where u can do nothing but sleeeeepinggg heavenly wohoooo) but actually deep down in my heart i really hate this seasons,only idiots love to play under the rains (yeah juz like in BOLLY movies - but still SRK looks really HOT in dum dum chak song ;P) - i feel that rain brings u nothing but a disaster n also sick n weak bodies, but dun mistakes me for saying that ,wat i mean here is a HEAVY-NON-STOP RAIN,otherwise rain is one of God Bless,we all noe that,juz look at Africa-a country with a heavy shunshine with no rain,no crops,no food,no living ppl and only left with dead bodies- 'sigh'

confuse + decision

lately my mind can only just 'think' and 'think',i dunnoe whether the thing i do now is right or wrong,I even search for the answer in 'google',can u believe that???

well anyway,i did prayed to my Lord that HE can show me the way

--> plss guide me dear Allah,for watever i'm facing now was from YOU too,so i'm kinda confuse still.

master update :

i still have to read lots of JOURNALS

which really makes me feel like this --->

(dear LORD plss help me with this one ALSO)